I'm Not Done Yet

Admitting one of the most shameful things EVER uttered from my mouth took more energy out of me than I had realized it would. Shortly after confiding in the ONLY person I ever told this to; I had to walk home. Fell a few times, had to sit down at one point and just take a few deep breaths. I just wanted to go home and hide away under my covers and ... sleep it off.

But unfortunately I couldn't.

I'm constantly told to not be so hard on myself, to believe in myself but the beast inside me is a constant work in progress. Until then I'll go on feeling as if I'm a failure.